狀態

恆星中的一個洞口﹐ 我站在它的旁邊﹐ 高處望進洞裡﹐ 漆黑一片﹐ 望不見盡頭。我隨手在地上撿拾一塊石頭向洞裡拋下去。 石頭好像給恆星吞沒了一樣﹐ 消失了﹐無聲無色。

我遲疑了一刻﹐ 緊閉雙眼﹐ 讓濃厚沈重的空氣包圍著。 我踏前一步﹐ 就這樣在小小的洞口跳下去。 仍然閉上雙眼﹐ 感受著氣溫續漸變得單薄﹐ 輕輕清涼的。 我把雙手雙腳打開﹐ 把身體形成大字﹐ 讓自己盡情地感受著一直掉進洞裡深處的速度﹐衝擊著強烈有力的風。

感覺過了很久很久﹐ 耳朵開始甚麼都聽不見﹐ 仍然不讓自己掙開雙眼﹐ 身體皮膚再也感覺不了甚麼。 突然覺得自己就像在這個空間消失了一樣﹐ 自己好像再不存在般。 僅有的就只是一片無邊際的思想﹐ 很大很大﹐ 很遠很遠。 很多回憶的畫面不斷重播﹐ 一頁一頁過去的故事﹐一幅一幅以前的圖畫﹐ 一張 一張似曾相識的臉﹐ 一堆又一堆天馬行空的幻想。。。

我給海天包圍著﹐ 360度不斷旋轉。 海與天恍惚變成一體﹐ 海天一線之分的顏色漸漸地變成一色。 速度與直線續漸消失﹐ 不再存在。 我再沒有一直的向下衝﹐ 再沒有受地心吸力的帶引。 在這個四周深藍色的洞裡﹐ 身體變得輕如棉花在漫天沒有規則地不停飄浮著﹐ 360度慢慢轉動。 我這才讓自己掙開雙眼﹐ 定一定神﹐ 我置身於一個透明藍色圓球體內﹐ 在偉大無際的星空中不留行跡地飄蕩著。 我用手指輕輕的觸摸一下薄薄柔軟的透明外牆﹐ 望一望那深奧的藍﹐ 感受著。。。 風是溫柔的﹐ 空氣慢慢的流動﹐ 輕柔地推動著我們﹐ 時間慢了﹐ 一切都平靜下來了﹐ 心也漸漸地安靜了。。。

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song: far far by yael naim


Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something to happen to her
everyday she writes words and more words
just to speak out the thoughts that keep floating inside
and she's strong when the dreams come cos' they
take her, cover her, they are all over
the reality looks far now, but don't go

how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
oh oh oh oh

far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there're colors and shapes
dazeling her eyes, tickeling her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarel rivers
but don't you run away already
please don't go oh oh

how can you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
how an you stay outside?
there's a beautiful mess inside
take a deep breath and dive
there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess
beautiful mess inside

oh beautiful, beautiful

far far there's this little girl
she was praying for something big to happen to her
every night she ears beautiful strange music
it's everywhere there's nowhere to hide
but if it fades she begs
"oh lord don't take it from me, don't take it yourselves"

i guess i'll have to give it birth
to give it birth
i guess, i guess, i guess i have to give it birth
i guess i have to, have to give it birth
there's a beautiful mess inside and it's everywhere

so shake it yourself now deep inside
deeper than you ever dared
deeper than you ever dared
there's a beautiful mess inside
beautiful mess inside